My Mistake

DARKEST DAWN
A story written by Oche Jeremiah
EPISODE 8


I got to the pastors office very early that morning. He asked about my welfare and how my journey went. I told him everything that happened in the village. He just consoled me and told me that better things are right ahead for me since God will intervene in my solution.
“But Daddy, when will God intervene?
How long will it take for God to intervene?” I questioned with utmost sadness in my voice.
“If God be for us, who can be against us”
If God fights for us, who can win us in that fight?
If God comes to save his own, who can refrain him from saving?”
“Son, even the lawful captive can be delivered and set free by God. His words give us that assurance and we are going to take God by his words and the manifestation will surely come through”.

All I could do was nod and say amen. Indeed my faith was almost failing. I felt I’ve lost it already. I felt I can’t go on again. I was already weak in faith. It’s becoming hard to believe that God will ever wipe my tears. I’ve fasted and prayed and used the promises in the scriptures but I’m still not getting any headway. It’s very discouraging you know.
Pastor was right though and I bless God for all his admonitions otherwise I would have been swallowed by this battle that is plaguing me. I believe God will intervene in my situation, I quickly encouraged myself.

“But Daddy, you called me while I was at the village that you had a revelation from God about me” I probed him.
Yes, God showed me something about you but it wasn’t clear. I’m still praying about it and I guess you should join me in this prayer.
“What did you see sir?”
Hmmmmm
Brother Anthony, in that revelation, you were standing at a crossroad and holding a basket. In that basket were fruits. Very beautiful looking fruits. They were on your head like you would hold goods on your head to the market. Suddenly, two personalities came out. One was a woman and the other was a madman.
The mad man kept screaming “You have broken the hedge and the serpent must bite. You have tasted the forbidden fruit and your stomach must be soured” you can’t go free except God intervenes.”
The mad man kept pointing at you and kept saying “It is not your now. It was your then. The key you seek has to be dug out for you to gain your victory.
Bro Anthony, does this dream make any meaning to you?
“Daddy, I am as confused as you are. I can’t put it together. It’s really confusing to me. The key you seek has to be dug out for you to gain your victory. How? I mean how can the key be dug out?”
I’ve not finished bro Tony.
The other woman just stood there looking. She was confused. It seems as if the madman was accusing her but the mad man was firm and shouted it many times that the problem does not lie in the now but in the then. That was what got me confused mostly. That is why I need you to pray so that God can make the vision clear and plain. We need his direction if we must make any progress at all. I believe and know that God is not a man that He should lie. He won’t suffer our feet to be moved. He keeps Israel and since he doesn’t sleep nor slumber, I believe He won’t slumber in your case.
I had that dream when I was seriously praying before I slept briefly. The dream was very confusing to me. I couldn’t make up anything from it.
And the way I see you now also shows that its not making any meaning or sense to you too.
I was deeply in thought. What could this dream mean?
A mad man shouting that my problem lies not in the now but in the then and a woman just standing and looking without saying anything. This is more confusing than I can fathom. I truly need to seek Gods face more if I must decode the meaning in this dream. It has a lot of promising features for me and my understanding will help me in bringing it to reality.

I and pastor talked at length after that.
He asked what my plan was for marriage and I laughed.
Daddy, I can’t even think of getting married because I am not settled at all.
Which sister will want to settle with a brother that can hardly fend for himself?
I don’t have a house, I have not gotten a job, I don’t have anything. Will I bring in a lady like that to live with me? Daddy you know it’s not possible.
I know there was a time I began sensing his leading but come on, I had to shut that area of my life up because if my life isn’t working, I don’t know how that area will work. So for now sir, I’m not thinking in that direction at all sir.
Probably, if I have something doing that I can use to fend for myself then, I will consider getting someone to marry sir.
I only said that in a hurry so I could stand up and just leave his office. Marriage was out of my vocabulary for now. I didn’t want to marry because I have no standing at all. No job, no better house, nothing good. I was struggling to even eat. Is it an innocent sister that I will bring with me to come and suffer the way I’m suffering? No way. It can’t happen.

Did brother Anthony eventually decoded the dream?
Was he able to get the answers to his throbbing questions?
You can find this out in the next episode.
DARKEST DAWN
EPISODE 9.

I know you’ve been blessed by this story. Comment and tell us how you feel about Brother Anthony’s depressing situation. Does he really deserve it or it’s another ploy by the devil to just frustrate his life.
I’ll be glad to hear from you.