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Her Searching Voice, My Ultimate Discovery  A conversational discourse between a father and his daughter.  Daddy, is it right to restrict people from doing what they want to do especially as they have grown up?  Will it not be totally wrong to always tell your precious daughter that she cannot do this or do that even when you know others are doing it without been harmed or stopped?  Why are teenagers often subjected to such bondage of taste not, touch not and the likes?  We can’t visit friends, friends cannot visit us, we can’t move about, we can’t even explore our own environment because you our parents will not allow us. Is that really fair dad?  Why can we not be trusted? We must we have parents who have given birth to us but who never believe that we don’t have something evil or negative off our sleeve?  If we make calls in your presence, you will ask who we were talking to. If we receive calls, you keep monito...

Grace Plaine

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Grace Plaine I sat there baffled by the world I found myself. Such cruelty can only be described by experiences. It's bitter chuddle can only be said in few words. For of a truth, it kills than the sword. I sat down to allow my heart gather momentum. It gathered heaviness that was heavier than the truck of heaviness. Did I chose my fate?  Can I accept what i did not chew?? I was made that way. Quiet as I might seem, I had my own reservations. We were nicknamed introverts because we were truly controversial.  Who will understand my unmistakable nature? Who will embrace me without questioning my fears?  That was my tale in confusion land. I held it high till it exploded like a major crisis. I couldn't button it up again due to it's pressure. No one came close and no one brought a close to it. Now in convinced I'm in a world where I have to be responsible for my demeanors. That darkness was thick.  Within my darkness came his penetra...
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Lost through Lust Many destinies have been destroyed because of this enemy. Many never got to the peak of their youthful grace because it pulled them down. Someone wants to tell us a story to illustrate this. Read to the end. You'll be glad you did. Hmmmmmmm OMG😤😤😤😤 Is this my life??? What a pity. I still cant say how i got myself into this strange puzzle. How did I land myself into this mud??? How will I be a king that has recorded tremendous success yet my family is in disarray. I've lost three of my sons because of my foolishness. I lost the eldest who indeed would have taken over from me. Now I've lost the most handsome of them all. I so loved him because he reminded me of so many things. Now he's dead. He died such a painful death. How did it all start??? I need to go down memory lane to share my bitter story. That evening, I had just delegated my powers as the commander in chief to my captain. I asked him to represent me in the battle wh...

My Mistake

My Mistake Episode 7.  Wow what was the aftermath of this all??? You won't believe it if I don't tell you.  Remember I said she wasn't guilty. We allowed our innocent teenage minds made us take it too seriously. Ours was infatuation but I don't know what to call it. Positive or negative? Hmmmm be my judge. We're still friends. The last time I saw her, I hugged her passionately. I mean I truly miss her as a friend.  We gisted as we fellowshipped with the brethren. I kept stealing gazes at her. Because all the last kept replaying.  The human mind is the memory that can never be deleted except by an accident. We were almost rounding up when I got the news. It was goodnews. I mean great news. Maybe I just wasn't expecting it. I felt weak a bit. Felt like I was sweating but then I waved it off. I was trying happy. Trust me. She was shy and afraid I guess to even open up. My friend and brother opened up and showed us her finger. She was engage...

My Mistake

My Mistake Episode 6. My freedom was close. Or should I say I perceived or hoped my freedom was close.  After that night prayers, I just knew God is going to do something. I had my doubts as to whether God heard or not but within something was brewing. God still answers prayers. I went to school just like any other day and we were together again. Hands locked in, walking towards the gate with the boldness that have been developed overtime. Somehow, I was having my thoughts. 'come on, are you not the person who prayed last night? What are you doing?' Those words were loud in my head you know but trust me, when one is in a well, he surely needs a help because he can't help himself. That was ny case. I was helpless. I couldn't save myself. As I delved into my thoughts something happened. Something that changed my course forever.  Someone saw me.  Someone I never thought would see me eventually  saw me.  Shec recognised me. She knew I was the one. Fo...

My Mistake

My Mistake Episode 5. I love her or should I say I was obsessed with her?? No that's not the right words. I just loved being with her but trust me, I know infatuation was really at work too but thank God it was controlled. I don't even know what to call it. I just know there's a push you know. If you can relate then you can relate. Let's ride on. There's been this trend i hear among the female folks that men are beast, Heartbreakers, wicked, bad, and many more. Sometimes I wonder if they have proof. In my own opinion I guess it's a clitche that has lost it's value. Whatever you termed a man, he is still God's creation. Those words have always hit me and I decided to decide how I'll go. For crying out loud, I've vowed not to be like that man women have painted "men are the same". Though I was a boy but I wanted mine to be different so I won't do anything rash (I guess it was God using that to save me). How can I free my...

My Mistake

My Mistake Episode 4.  Eventually, I had my dad register me in school. That was like 5 to 6 weeks into the first term already. You know I had a delay which I have to fix first to determine if I'll go forward or backward. At least I was able to happy that I was on the right lane of success or so I thought.  The sight of seeing my very mates in their uniform passing my house after school was something I couldn't cope with. I just have to be in school no matter what.  God answered my prayers and here i was as an SS1 student.  After I registered, I met her again and love or so i called it reawakened. This time, it became so intense. I could now hold her hand and move about without feeling any conscience speak to me (not that it was a sin, just that I had been trained at home and my church will stone me if they caught me doing that. That was the situation i was in). It could have stopped but I awakened it again. Guys ehn, we have our own problems ooooo.  ...

My Mistake

My Mistake Episode 3. When one strays from God, it can be so so dangerous. I mean that emptiness that He's no longer occupying your heart could be very detrimental as you'll lack two things. Peace and safety. I was desperately in need of these two ingredients. Well, i hoped and pray it turns out well. Going back to Him as a prodigal son wasn't the ideal thing in my heart. No one showed me love at home so finding it in school was something I won't trade for anything. I continued. Wrote my JSC examinations and the journey to the land of secondary school senior began. I came to SS1 at last. You mean I'm going to wear a long sleeved shirt at last??? That was too good to be true. In between my JSCE and Senior secondary admission was a delay period. I had some deficiencies which I had to clear before I was given an admission and posting so I had to retake that exam writing only maths which I eventually passed. I was afraid because I was told. If you don'...

My Mistake

My Mistake Episode 2. Hmmmmm indeed, every good road just first come with a bad resistance or so I thought. Sure. I couldn't tell if I was in a good road not to talk of claiming the resistance was bad. Probably my small mind cooked it all. We were almost taking our JSC examinations when issues started coming up. I mean I've kept it bottled up till now and trust me, I seemed like a pro in it when eventually someone I valued as a friend decided to step into it. Well he told me "I'll do everything to separate you two" that sounds somehow right? Yes it did. What have I done or the question to ask is what have we truly done?? That was how my best friend (like I know who is a best friend before) became my best enemy. He didn't want me and my friend to be. We quarrelled, insulted and hauled at each other and yet I won. Everyone stood for me. Everyone in the class opted in for me. My best 'enemy' has been defeated. He was disgraced alot but from t...

My Mistake

My Mistake. A story written by Oche Jeremiah. Episode 1. For crying out loud what is life without friendship?? The word is even having a ship within. I guess it's so because it can either take you to your destination or bundle you to a strange destination. It all started as a normal friendship. We were so into each other. I mean the care, the openness, the passion for GOD and the zeal to make Him know to everyone truly consumed us. I met her when we were in Js1. I was taller than her and I was more than happy to accept her as someone whose words has always supported me. Everyone nicknamed us as 'couple'. Although I put up a strong face each time they said that physically, when in actual truth within I craved for it. I loved the sound of it. I mean who won't like to have such a girl by his side. I truly loved every bit of it. That was how we grew from js1 till we got to js3. It was growing and blossoming. All I couldn't say was "is this real or ...

The Strange "E"

How can I zip it in like it doesn't exist. How can I take it in like the lizard takes in it's head. Can I say it doesn't matter? Why was I given it?? My Emotions. Who will believe me when I say I'm more pregnant with emotions than with tears. Who will take me in and console me knowing fully well I can't quench this fire that wants to burn me out. My Emotions. I tried to be a big boy. I thought that would settle it. My disposition placed me in more desperation. I couldn't subdue what was not meant to be subdued. My Emotions. Blood is thicker, friendship is stronger, experience is deeper, conditions are richer. Only that path is a stranger. My Emotions. I told them, I'll love easily. It was counted as folly. Now I can't help but breathe my emotions. How can I deliver myself from the Divines grip? Is it a gift or a rift? My Emotions. Oche Jeremiah